I’m all set to start a new company. Will have 4 people in the start but they are going to take a cool amount every month. I say, my friend who has 9 staffs pays less than what my 4 people are going to take.
I’ve only worked for what I’ve got so far. I am not an atheist but then I never really prayed and went temple to ask something from the god. I can proudly say that I’ve done more than 98% of what average Nepalese youth(or kid as some say) could do in my age. I never believed in Bhoot and Dhami Jhakri and hat heraune. But then, one bad ass Jyotis blew my mind. I gave my hand as I thought he is funny and he said these things:
- you’re not good in study but very good at work
- you spend lots of money on things that you don’t need
- you can make friends very easily
- you can’t keep anything in you stomach
- you have problem of back pain
- you make lots of money
- you are very childlike
- you have problems with one of your parents
and few other very personal stuffs.
And that all 100% fucking correct. I was like, “you’re not my ex-girlfriend in this Jyotis’s body, are you?”. Because its maybe only her who knows all that personal stuffs about me.
Then the guy went on to say few things about my future:
- you’ll breakup with two girls who you seriously date and then finally settle with the third one ;)
- you’ll succeed with the help of two people in your life. And he meant REAL help.
And something even more funnier:
- Sangkata(wife of Ketu) is not happy with you. You have to worship her before starting any business and you need to wear this stone.
So, now i am all set to start a new company with someone whom I’ve never really met. We’ve only talked in Skype. After working with him for nearly 4 years in few small stuffs he’s ready to invest in my company. If that Jyotis is to be believed he is the first guy who is helping me to succeed.
Now, the question is, will I(the guy who never really asked for anything with god) worship Sangkata and wear some stone so that she will be happy with me and bless me or not?
Some people just don’t get it.
YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU DON’T KNOW!
A lot of my friends run small businesses. One owns a web design company, one owns a trekking company and another sells clothes. But none of they care to concentrate on what they actually do. They like to do everything and anything that comes around.
I’ll start with the web design companywala. He doesn’t have a slightest idea of what Search Engine Optimization is. Yet he have a page in his website on SEO, not less than 1000 words of which, at least 20 percent of content is not correct. He is counting on some other companies, he’ll take the project and make someone else to do it.
The second one, who owns the trekking companies likes to take anything that relates to tourists. Ticketing, travel packages, rafting, hash hunting (yeah seriously), tourists are easy money. But the fact is he only knows trekking, he doesn’t know a shit about ticketing, travel packages and all that. He sometimes ends up getting screwed up because the company to whom he sources the job does a bad job.
The last one who sells t-shirts doesn’t ever say, ‘Sorry, I don’t have this one’. He has a shop in one of the popular shopping malls. He goes shopping on the whole mall when someone asks for something he doesn’t have. He can’t just let go of one customer. I can imagine how irritated can people get. He just doesn’t get it, he doesn’t have what he doesn’t have.
Only if they care on what they know, what they specialize and only if they work on improving that they would have done a lot more by now. They started long before other more successful people I know but they haven’t really done much.
What’s up with awarding the Saudi prince with the highest honor in Nepal? Isn’t this one of the funniest thing ever? It sounds like that for me and I’m sure it does to other people also.
For those who doesn’t know what I’m talking about here’s the story. The 19th richest man in the world Saudi Prince Al Walid Bin Talal who is in a visit to Nepal has been awarded with the highest honor that is given to foreign national by Nepalese Government.
Nobody really knew Talal in Nepal until a new of his Nepal visit surfaced a month back. Of course he has invested in apple, news corporation and all that but no one really cares about that in Nepal. So clearly, he hasn’t done anything in Nepal.
Aren’t awards supposed to be given to people in honor of something they’ve done? I haven’t seen before any organization honoring someone to make them happy so that they’ll do something later. It sounds even more hero-worship than honoring Obama with the Nobel Peace Prize just after he was appointed for the office. And this guy is not even a hero. No-one really knew him before in Nepal.
Nepal has been trying to make other countries happy by giving up sometimes a lot more than its self-respect, dignity and what not. But it has now gone one step forward by honoring some rich individual to make him happy so that he’ll make some hotels here or have his airlines fly here.
To make things even worse, it has been surfaced that the prince visited Nepal only for that honor. And he threatened not to visit the country he is not going to be honored. What would really happen had some jackass who spends hundreds of thousands just to get some medal returned home without visiting Nepal?
I’d broke up with my last girlfriend some 4 months ago. It was mutual break up still she had hard time trying not to call me or miss me or things like that. Even I missed her sometimes but it felt like I’ve moved on. I rarely called her, I only replied her texts. We met few times after the breakup.
Fast forward to 4 month, I was with friends in a friends home which happens to be in front of her(my ex) house. I talked with her for few minutes and went somewhere to drop her sister and then I went to my friends house to play cards. I was seated in such position I’d see her every time she gets out from her room. And something very interesting happened. She was going out and in all the time and I was trying to look into her eye. She must have gone out and in for about 200 times and she didn’t look toward me once. As if she doesn’t know that I’m there.
Then all of a sudden I felt very possessive about her. I felt like being ignored by someone very close, like your girlfriend(not ex). Later I told her she didn’t have to ignore me like that. She asked me if I remember the day I ignored her. Her sister told me that she still loves me and she would happily accept me if I want to go back.
Now I’m back in Kathmandu, I’ve started to feel more confused. I’d thought that I’ve moved on and I was almost ready to get with another girl. But now, I feel not so ready. I felt like going back to her last night. I felt like I’ve never really moved on. And I felt like I’m actually lying to myself that I’ve moved on. I’ve started to feel like what they call ‘missing a train’ in Jab We Met.
Above of all that I often felt like I could always go back to her. I still feel like she’ll always love me she’ll always take me back. That sense of security makes me one of the worst human being/lover I think. I think that is what stopping me from going back to her now. And that’s wrong, very wrong. I don’t deserve her. I want to see the world(not just in the form of traveling) and I feel like she can’t come along with me. I didn’t want to have anyone expecting me when I’m gone. I didn’t want to feel them lonely. That is the main reason I broke up. But I am not sure whether I am worried about her or I am worried about myself when I think like that.
I am in a big dilemma now. Whether to make up with or to move on. And I doubt that I’ll really be able to move on.
I met my ex couple of times during my Dashain holiday. Did some chitchat with her and her mom. When I got back to Kathmandu, I received a text from her:
“You were looking so cute today. I’m sure I’ll fall for you once again if we keep meeting like this.”
I didn’t reply.
Recently, I’d become close to a group of people who work in travel industry. I actually can call one of them a friend, he owns a trekking agency. They often have foreign guests in their home.
So, few months back I was in their home and there were two girls from Europe. It was Friday and I was in the mood to go club. I asked my friend if he is interested. The two girls who understood the word ‘club’ asked us if we are talking about going club. They wanted to come along when I said yes. So we went to this club CUBE. I took almost 6 peg of vodka and one of the girl joined me. And the other wanted to dance. I like to dance when I am drunk. I can dance in anything. Trance, Bollywood music and even lok dohori. So we danced. She was one of the best dancer in the whole club. I am a bad dancer but I really enjoyed dancing. When the club was over, it was raining heavily. When we reached home we were all wet. I even needed to change my underwear. So as we were all already wet, we went to the stair and did the ‘rain-dance’. In all, we had a great time. And we talked for some time before we went to sleep.
And then something happened. The girl as everyone (including herself) says started to like me. She would call me to meet her, she would want to come to my house and all that. At one point she was too desperate so I started to avoid her because I didn’t wanted to get involved with her. As everyone started to tease, I told the girl that I don’t want to be involved with her thinking that she might actually expect something. She is still in the town and we still meet. She is a good girl but I still don’t want anything from her.
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So its time again for the Nobel Peace Prize announcement again. I read few articles on how nobel peace committee failed to award Mahatma Gandhi with the prize. And some people actually think that they inadvertently did a good job by failing to award Gandhi with the prize because Gandhi was far above the Nobel Prize.
It has been believed that U2 Frontman Bono and Liu Xiaobo are to win the prize this year. I do believe that Bono has a lot for people and I can also agree that he deserves the prize ONLY IF Nobel Peace Prize is fair enough to judge someone’s work or only if Nobel peace prize is authentic enough.
I personally think this whole Nobel Prize thing, specially the ‘peace’ prize has become more of political exercise. For instance, Barack Obama at the time of winning Nobel Prize for Peace had not done anything except few sweet words on peace. I still believe that he have not done anything significant on peace process.
People like Mahatma Gandhi and Mohammad Yunus are beyond any prizes and they’ll be remembered forever regardless of what prize they’ve got. How many people remember the Nobel Peace prize winner of 2 years ago? and how man people remember Mahatma Gandhi? So, I believe that Mahatma Gandhi indeed is far above for Nobel Prize.
Lately, I’ve realized that I’ve become arrogant and rude. Not that I hadn’t realize these things myself but someone hit me with all this last weekend during a beer session.
About until last years, I was very polite to all people. I am still polite to strangers and elders. But when it comes to my friends and specially younger people like my siblings, i have become arrogant and rude. I shout at them when they make a slight mistake and unknowingly I try to present myself as smarter, better or so so.
Its not because I want to be like that, I’ve just become that. God knows how. But I have some thoughts on how I became like this.
First, I am independent and successful and they are not. And even though I do not deliberately want to be proud of it or show it, it shows. Automatically. Besides I’m 22 years old and there are already some people dependent on me, so may be I already feel like a parent. I’ve already achieved what my friends parents might not have yet been able to achieve. Now, I am beginning to understand why people fall down after they get successful.
At some point, I had started drinking a lot and even smoking pots and what not. But I’ve stopped that all now.
Second, I make a lot of money. Again, I don’t think I’m better just because I make a lot of money. But it shows, obviously. I pay in the cafe all the time, I lend them money and never get back. So maybe, my some self which is not in my conscious control is driving me to the feeling that I can be arrogant to them or I am superior to them.
Third, they are naive. They know very little about things, and they think very little about things. When I think of a travel plan, I go to all possible dimensions of it before getting excited about it. But they don’t. They shoot something and starts celebrating and when I present some obstacle, they’ll be grounded.
And I know, that is not their fault. Its must be again my own fault. May be I am overestimating them. They’re just in college now; they’ve never worked anywhere; they’ve never gone out of city; they have never got a chance to be on their own, without their parents paying everything for them. So, I obviously, can’t expect them to be like me. I left my home when I was 15 and its been 5 years since I’d been living in my own. Thats how I’d become to this stage.
I want to change myself. I want to stop shouting at my siblings when they make mistakes, and I want to cool to my friends. I don’t want them to feel that I’m not one of them.
And what could also be true is, may be I haven’t grown up at all. May be its just my financial status and my career that has grown up.
Ok, my little sister has a boyfriend now. Not that I was spying or her but I saw her message by mistake and the first message I saw was from that guy. Coincidentally the guy and I share same name.
I am worried. Not because, she has a boyfriend. I am worried because I think she is just a kid. She celebrated 17th birthday few months ago. I don’t want her to be with wrong guy. But I also know that she’ll take care of herself. She is very smart and she’ll find out whether the guy is good enough for her or not before going out with him.
